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A comment to my previous DW/LJ post on 4x1 Sherlock got my reply, which compiled a bunch of links to free, public domain Sir Arthur Conan Doyle Sherlock Holmes stories. So I am copying my reply as a post, so that whoever wants to can find and download the Sherlock Holmes canon. \o/

I said:

Note: I am a more than casual fan of the original stories, not a completist devotee. But I love them as literary "comfort food" and the giant upon whose shoulders all subsequent crime fiction/fictional detectives stand, from House, to Longmire and friend Henry Standing Bear, to Lisbeth Salander and Mikael Blomqvist.

Note: Conan Doyle began writing these stories in the late 1800s. Expect some matter-of-fact period-typical sexism, racism, and imperialism.

I'll give some personal favorites &/or noteworthy stories off the top of my head, with links. Most (but not all) of Conan Doyle's Sherlock Holmes stories are available free (!) in the public domain from Project Gutenberg in HTML, epub, Kindle, and mobi formats. Some are available as audio books, e.g. A Study In Scarlet! View the list of public domain Sherlock Holmes stories (sorted by popularity rather than release date or order in which they were written).
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Happy reading!

Cross-posted from DW
I really loved Sherlock S1. Smart, attractive dudes in master/apprentice (or hero/sidekick) friendship, acknowledged by the fictional characters themselves to have slashy elements? What was not to love.

S2 I loved less so. S3 I loved least of all -- I actively hated aspects of S3. Now here we are with S4.

To understand my growing disappointment with Sherlock, and the way it has increased with each new season, I must state one major caveat up front. I'm originally a fan of the Conan Doyle source materials -- the Sherlock Holmes short stories. I read them first as a kid, again as a teen, again as an adult (in my 20s/30s/40s).

Which means I am a fan of the original, canonical Holmes and Watson and their canonical dynamic.

After S3, I was troubled by the show and not sure I would come back for S4. This was for two reasons:

1) Characterization (or character assassination) -- and the emotional manipulation of the audience that was an essential part of the characterization.

As the seasons progressed, I felt the execution of the original premise (Victorian London brilliant supersleuth dropped into the 21st century) deteriorated and got off-track.

though I am by no means a slavish devotee to the source, the character of Sherlock was progressively destroyed as seasons progressedCollapse )

Yeah, the slash was automatically beefed up by the melodrama and character assassination. But if they'd just stuck with the canonical characters, partnership, and mystery-solving -- merely updating to the 21st century -- the slash would've inevitably been there. . . without all of the emotional audience manipulation. Slash fandom would've heart-eyed Sherlock anyway.

2) Blatant misogyny -- less a minor subset of the character's canonical misanthropy than a new feature of his new, 21st century asshole personality.

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What pissed me off most was that once they started down the fake-apologist road with Mary, they chose to execute it in even more insidiously and subtly misogynist ways.

They both put in a wedding episode and knocked her up.

Because apparently she can't just be a female BAMF. She has to also fulfill her social and biological destiny as a vagina owner.

After S3, I told myself I wasn't going to get excited about S4. And I wasn't. I was enjoying the company of 30+ years-of-friendship friends that night.

So I watched S4E1 later. . . actually on Tuesday night, on the PBS Video app on my Roku (so I could watch in HD).

What I watched only solidified my removing Sherlock from my TV viewing list/queue.

The fake-apologist retconned female BAMF character (who never existed in canon in the first place) naturally reached the logical conclusion one would expect from the emotionally manipulative narrative the writers had created to absolve themselves of their misogyny in earlier episodes.


They killed her, of course.

So. Yeah. There is no need to watch the rest of S4.

Just my 2 cents. YMMV.

ETA: of course, the canonical Mary Morstan dies, too. However, she was never the focus of the stories, nor was Watson's married life. She was a minor character and the reason why, for a time, Watson isn't Holmes' room mate.

The way that the writers built her up and let her hijack the Holmes/Watson narrative -- all while knowing they would kill her off as she was in canon -- further highlights the cynical way they used Mary to absolve/excuse the misogyny they had created, and then killed her off when it was convenient. Really pretty revolting.

Cross-posted from DW
Fandom-wise, I was not very active in 2016, but that's nothing new despite ongoing OT/PT for carpal tunnel and lateral epicondylitis since October. I managed some fic scattered across different fandoms. While I didn't finish the WIPs I wantedto finish, I finished a couple old ones, and with my lowered expectations for myself this past year, I am okay with that. I am surprised I wrote as much as I did. So, yay.

Population: 3 minus 1
Fandoms: Longmire (TV)
Words: 9,317
M/M, F/M/M
Tags: Walt Longmire/Henry Standing Bear, Martha Longmire/Walt Longmire/Henry Standing Bear, Long-Term Relationship(s), Grief/Mourning, Angst with a Happy Ending, Canon-Typical Violence, Explicit Sexual Content, Slow Build, OTP Feels, Threesome - F/M/M, Angst and Porn

Henry thought back to Walt silently drinking, his gaze a weight that repeatedly drew Henry's attention until the rest of the bar faded away, as if their stares at each other were the only thing in the world.

~ ~ ~

Breath and Blood for MK_Yujji (due South Seekrit Santa 2016)
Fandoms: due South
Words: 14,048
M/M, F/M
Tags: Teen And Up Audiences, Benton Fraser/Ray Kowalski, Benton Fraser/Victoria Metcalf, Alternate Universe - Supernatural Elements

Fraser seems to casually endanger his partners in wildly bizarre ways, as if he's bullet-proof &/or wearing a cape. Kowalski may have figured out why -- and also why Fraser doesn't always come out unscathed.

~ ~ ~

OMG, why aren't more people watching Longmire? I get that instead of a chronic low grade ongoing slashiness in every ep, Longmire instead has chronic barely-there slash with sudden spectacular eruptions in particularly slashy eps. But shows with less slashiness have garnered bigger slash fandoms. Maybe it is because both male leads are over 45 (or 50) years old and both have some gray hair, including gray chest hair on one of them? (and kudos for NOT waxing, dyeing, or weaving it!!) because the Tumblr crowd skews so young that old dudes are probably considered skeezy? I don't know. But ageism is alive and well in so many other areas of life and society, why not this one, too.

Cross-posted from DW

Fibromyalgia profiteers

I got an email a couple weeks ago about an online "summit" about fibromyalgia, with fibromyalgia experts. There were to be daily "talks" which you could watch as video or audio only for free, but only on the days those talks occurred.

Against my better judgment, I signed up for it. But it was the same old shit in brand new drag -- everything offered was just to link you to other stuff they wanted you to pay for from these same "experts." I listened to only the first day, which did not tell me anything I did not already know (and that you couldn't find by carefully searching the 'net and vetting the sources) -- and then I unsubscribed.

Now, of course, you can buy the whole summit for $140. Assholes. I sure as hell wouldn't spend $140 on their recycled information! because 1.5 massages or 3.5 chiropractice adjustments would do me way more good -- for the same amount of money!

Soaking people in chronic severe pain -- we who have already spent thousands of $$ on all kinds of over-the-counter, non-prescription pain and inflammation remedies and complementary and alternative treatments like massage, chiropractice, acupuncture and herbalists (most of which is NOT covered by insurance if you're lucky enough to have it) -- for yet more money just makes my blood boil.

The fact that it's often done by complementary/alternative practitioners makes me even angrier.

And the few MDs who purport to do research but then offer links to this crap on their web sites (and/or sell overpriced supplements of their own manufacture or with their name on them or their stamp of approval) completely invalidate and de-legitimize what little research they have done by revealing their own profit motive. I'm sure they get a cut for offering the links!

They talk about how mainstream medicine has downplayed FM and has yet to offer any definitive diagnostic criteria, or treatment or cure -- yet they're just as bad, in a different way.

It just really fucking pisses me off. Grrrrr!

Cross-posted from DW
Well, I've read all the Longmire Walt/Henry slash on AO3. There is a shocking lack thereof, which I feel I must rectify by writing some. I'm really surprised how little there is, though there is tons of Walt/Vic -- which, while I can certainly see the chemistry (but then who wouldn't have chemistry with Katee Sackhoff, really? lol), is a whole bag of tricks I'm not into as much, mainly because canonically she's kind of a trainwreck in terms of relationships, and Walt is so not... so I see that as being a volcano that would destroy everything in its path (including both of them)...

...and also because, damn, I just find the Walt/Henry chemistry to be the constant glowing embers of a fire that burns hot and then maybe simmers down for a while and then flares up again in a kind of "we don't talk about it BUT IT'S THERE" kind of way.

So if anyone knows of any Walt/Henry Longmire slash that isn't on AO3 and which I should read, by all means -- please let me know.

Also: recently saw a Spanish language film called "La isla minima" (aka Marshlands), a disappearance/mystery set in the Andalusian marshlands in 1980*.

Interestingly it pinged me like S1 of True Detective, with the same kind of desolate, isolated rural swampland horrors-beneath-the-surface vibe, but without the supernatural or philosophical stuff (and only slight slashy twinges). Apparently I'm not the only person to have felt the True Detective S1 vibe from it, though apparently it was in production before TD S1 was.

It is really good. I recommend it, if you don't mind subtitles. It is suspenseful and thought provoking.

*with all the textual and subtextual post-Franco dread that implies

Cross-posted from DW

Inherent Vice fic?

Having seen Paul Thomas Anderson's film Inherent Vice over the weekend (I missed it in theaters), I'm now tempted to tackle the source, Thomas Pynchon's novel. Joaquin Phoenix's performance reminded me somewhat of his similarly hapless role in Clay Pigeons (with Janeane Garofalo, back in the 90s), but of course here he's a stoner PI rather than the main suspect.

I really loved all the period details. I'm old enough that I remember some of the early part of my childhood, when hippies really *were* perceived as dirty, filthy degenerates and a threat equated with the Manson family, Viet Nam was a nightly horror on the news, and Nixon's paranoia colored the straight world's perception of everything (not to mention the casual police brutality of the times, which seems to have morphed over the decades from a policy of blanket brutality to superficial civil rights punctuated by frequent outbursts of "justified" lethal force... progress, not so much). So maybe I'll give it a shot, though I find Pynchon's stuff intimidating in general, probably because my ADD makes it hard enough to finish books... I do better with nonfiction these days, and I'm embarrassed to admit I got a gift of Pynchon's The Crying Of Lot 49 years ago, and just couldn't get into it.

But imo, there's a definite culture clashy slashy vibe between Doc the dirty hippie and Bigfoot the brutal LAPD cop--not helped by Bigfoot frequently sucking on chocolate covered frozen bananas around Doc often throughout the film. And their weird working relationship seems preslash, to me. I'm disappointed to find no Inherent Vice fanfic at all on AO3, much less slash. Of course now a plot bunny for them is rolling around my head... just what I need.

In other news, yesterday and last night I had a migraine so bad, I threw up a few times. And now I have these tiny petechiae (dots of burst blood vessels) all around both eyes from the force of the vomiting, like blood red freckles. If I were dressing up as a zombie, this would really work for that look. Instead, I'm maxed on concealer. At least my coworkers are all healthcare professionals. Though who knows what the patients work think if they saw them. And, realistically, my coworkers could also easily assume that the vomiting associated with the petechiae was from drinking to excess. Sigh...

Cross-posted from DW

Atheist Witnesses

This did not happen today.

(doorbell rings) (I answer door)

Me: Can I help you?

Her: Oh, we were just spreading the word--

Me (firmly): No, thank you.

Her: Well, we're going door to door to invite people to our church--

Me (even more firmly): I said, NO, thank you.

Her: Well--

Me: How would you like it if I went door to door, spreading the word of atheism? And I rang your doorbell and said, "Hello, here's a newspaper about how God doesn't exist, and you're all alone in the Universe, and everything you've ever been told about a kind and forgiving deity is brainwashing bullshit designed to separate you from your money, so that organized religions that protect and provide sanctuary to pedophiles and rapists can fill their coffers?"

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Cross-posted from DW

New fic: dS, TW, and TW/TD xover fic

Since my tendonitis/epicondylitis got a bit better, I tried to light a fire under my own ass to finish two long WIPs.

I posted on AO3 excerpts of two longer fics -- one a dS WIP(RayK/Stella, RayK/Sam Franklin, eventual Fraser/Kowalski), and one a TW WIP (Derek/Stiles).

Then I wrote a Teen Wolf/True Detective Derek Hale/Rust Cohle crossover... uh, whoops? But I feel they would understand each other, these two. They have both lost so much, had so much grief.

All are technically unbeta-ed, though the dS WIP has been beta-ed somewhat (thanks Ride_Forever!).

Just Act Normal
Fandoms: due South
Words: 11,588
M/M, F/M
Tags: Sam Franklin/Ray Kowalski, Ray Kowalski/Stella Kowalski,
Rimming, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, First Time Blow Jobs, Sexual
Confusion, Bisexuality, Infidelity, First Gay Sex, Angst

Summary: Stella was gone. Sam was around. A lot. Ray realized pretty soon that he had a crush on Sam. A terrible, hopeful crush.

This Is What You Do (To Me)
Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV)
Words: 2,163
Tags: Underage,
Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski
Masturbation, Voyeurism, Self-Denial, Come play

Summary: Derek's surprise visits usually involve shaking Stiles down for research. Anything else is an afterthought (chain-yanking). Stiles is fed up with it. So when he finds Derek in his room again, he shows him the door. Or, rather, window. At least, that was the plan.

Beautiful (Beast)
Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV), True Detective
Words: 4,465
Tags: Rustin "Rust" Cohle/Derek Hale, Derek Hale, Laura Hale, Rustin
"Rust" Cohle, Blow Jobs, Anal Fingering, Anonymous Sex

Summary: "Show me," Rust murmurs. Derek lets his wolf out a little, just the eyes, the heavy brow, the fangs and sideburns. "Beautiful beast," Rust whispers. He slides down the back of the bathroom door to his knees. When he looks up with glassy eyes, Derek realizes it isn't just Rust kneeling at his feet. It's Rust and someone else. Rust has shifted, in his own way.

Cross-posted from DW
I'd hate to jinx myself but... after a month and a half of seeing a naprapath and following her exercise and nutrition regimen (mostly), I am starting to see some results. (The chiropractor has helped, too, as the shooting pain alternating with numbness/tingling that goes down my R forearm is probably, as he suggested, at least neck-vertebrae-nerve related (if not wholly to blame, which is his hypothesis, but I'm going to go with "major contributory factor").

I kind of thought the naprapath was, well, overselling the fruit-veg smoothie thing. Not that I thought she was lying, I just thought "It can't be THAT much of a difference, and I already eat those foods, anyway!") What can I say, I'm a skeptic at heart.

The idea that I'd have a spare $400 laying around to buy a Vitamix just for fruit/veg smoothies (when I'm still paying off radiology, doctor visits, and PT from December when I had shitty market place insurance with a $5000 deductible) was a no-go.

But I lucked into a "personal drink mixer" for $14.99 on sale while it was a temporary offering at my local Aldi's, put in my path by the universe/God/whatever about 1.5 weeks after she said I ought to start doing this and I investigated the cost of Vitamix, Ninja and the other one, and was like, "There's no way, not with the bills from December and the new bills from January/February."
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But after 2 weeks of daily organic kale/mango or kale/mixed cherries, I felt so. much. BETTER. it was actually shocking how much better I felt. My mood improved a lot, which surprised the hell out of me. I was just hoping for a decrease in pain/inflammation. And I really didn't understand why the organic kale/spinach and avocados weren't doing the trick when I was eating them almost daily in salads. Apparently, blending the hell out of them into a smoothie and then drinking them helps you get more out of them! Who knew? Not me... not until recently.

I still haven't added the protein powder, but just the fruit/veg (and turmeric and Emergen-C) smoothies daily, combined with naprapathic manipulation every 2 weeks and weekly (or every 2 week) chiropractor visits has reduced the shooting pain &/or tingling/numbness from 15-20 x day to 2-5 x a day.

So excited! I actually have the energy to take the dog on long walks after I get home from work now, instead of just a 5 minute walk and then collapse on the couch after we get back (followed by letting him out on a 20' lead from my front porch).
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It does not escape me that I, a Registered Nurse and representative of modern western conventional medicine, have been helped far more by "alternative medicine" than by conventional medicine.

OTOH, my new insurance through work with the lower deductible ($1,400 rather than $5,000 -- or the $6,000 my shitty marketplace plan was moving to) does not pay for "alternative medicine," so it's taking kind of a large chunk of money out of my life. But I don't go out much, and when I do, it's usually over to someone else's house or having them over to mine (less often), so it's not like I can't swing it, for the most part.

So this is what I make in the morning, EVERY morning:

fill personal drink cup with 1/2 organic baby kale OR organic baby spinach
fill with 1/2 organic defrosted frozen mango/mixed organic cherries
dump in 1 envelope of orange or berry flavored Emergen-C
add 1 teaspoon organic turmeric
fill 2/3 to 3/4 with unsweetened almond milk

I add no sweetener (the Emergen-C is sweetened -- it *says* with "fructose" but I'm not sure if that's really fructorse or HFCS (since food makers are now allowed to call HFCS "fructose")).

Sometimes I'll mix the mangoes and cherries together. Sometimes I'll use a banana or apple instead. Occasionally I've used celery instead of kale or spinach, just for variety and celery is supposed to be anti-inflammatory, too.

Every day, day by day, it's been helping.

Even if I'm only at 55-65% of my functioning -- hey, I was only at about 25-35% function two months ago, constantly in pain, and with no energy, barely able to drag myself to work and drag myself home. I had practically stopped socializing (except for phone convos, texting, and email).

This is so much better.


Cross-posted from DW
If being sick with upper respiratory infection for weeks hasn't been enough, the tendonitis which seemed to be getting better has now morphed into numbness and tingling that shoots down my right arm to thumb and index finger.

I keep thinking of the things I'll never do because of it and because it keeps coming back.

I will never write seriously. I probably never would have, given that fanfic dominated my creative output. But the possibility was at least out there ...before tendonitis.

I can never go back to playing music. I miss it so much sometimes (I didn't love playing violin, but I loved playing the piano) and violin skills translate to guitar, which I taught myself a little of... before tendonitis.

I can never go back to electronic art or even modern video editing (my first bachelors was a BFA in film/video and electronic media). I simply can't do all the mousing and keyboard work and knob twiddling necessary.

I will never be free of this weakness, this vulnerability that hampers all my creative outlets, the ones I love most. I feel I'm crippled for life. Every time I over do it, I am crippled by pain and dysfunction for weeks or months.

Professionally, I can never move up into management. I probably wouldn't have anyway (doesn't fit my personality) but the computer work (QA, data analysis, email) is impossible for me now.

They just offered me my boss' position (she's stepping down) and I will clearly have to decline. I probably would have anyway, but I would have liked to decline because I wanted to decline -- not because I physically can't do the work required.

I suppose I should thank my lucky stars that I can still start IVs on patients, as that is not a pain free activity for me, but it at least doesn't leave my arm aching the way the necessary computer charting does.

Speech to text helps a bit but is still so imperfect it requires a lot of correction which just strains my arm more. I can't imagine writing an entire novel-length work with speech to text. It would be as much work correcting the speech written text as it would typing the entire thing out.

If I owe you replies or messages, this is why. I'm only posting this because I'm already in so much pain it won't make much difference and I'm enraged and depressed at my fate.

Goddamnit. I hate this.

Cross-posted from DW


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